December 31st!

Gulp. today is December 31st.
Decision day! Tell SADA dog about plans day! So many events, but I am still with doubt.
IS CNC LYING?!? SHOULD I LEAVE?!?
I just am not sure about my choices yet. kana is- she plans to tell SADA dog- all by herself. part of me feels left out, but the other half doesn’t feel left out. And why should I feel this way when I am surrounded by…. by… I don’t know- friends, I guess.
Why do we have to make choices?
Which is regret such a strong word? life would be easy if we just had someone we trusted to navigate our lives. That’s what cats have. That’s what princess used to have.
But it’s too sad now.
we have to make the choices and face the consequences and choose our paths. it’s our choice whether to be selfish or brave, nice or mean. And then we wonder: What would have happened if I chose the other option? But, too bad. We only live once. And nobody is willing to live again a life full of dread and being tormented. And who wants guilt?
I bet the evils are heavy with guilt! Who wouldn’t be after declaring war! And, well the more I think about it, the more doubt I have. I can’t choose, I just can’t. This is a great mystery to me- why to do we face so many troubles?
I think for a while, and then the answer comes to me, crystal clear: So we can overcome them.

HUGGY!
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Should Huggy Stay at SADA?

I need help. Should I stay? I’m stuck. PLEASE help! I need to make my choice- and fast, before it’s too late! And who wants that to happen?
Um, well, also think about my previous post and weigh the goods and the bads about leaving and the goods and the bads about staying! Thanks, it’ll be helpful!

Huggy**

Think About It

Cuteness in disguise

Cuteness in disguise

Huggy here. I still have time before the decision. ANd truth be told- I’m nervous. Super duper nervous. I’m fretting.
Should I leave?? Should I? I do miss a normal life- where I don’t worry about Adopt Me, Please. and I don’t have tasks and earn names like huggypaw! Where I don’t have to make difficult choices and write a post or two everyday. But SADA is difficult. It’s not fair! But I shouldn’t be saying that. gates should! He has arthritis and it makes it very difficult for him! I just wish I could help somehow, but I’m so confused, I hardly know where I am.
But… here at Sada? I have a ton to blog about, and a ton to think about. I’m surrounded by the gang.. or my friends. I have secrets and I have burdens. My life is a betrayal full of test and questions to see if I’m worthy. But am I?
Doubt is my weapon. So is cuteness. When you open this blog, you must think- Huggy has a totally normal, perfect life, but I don’t. I used to. Scroll to the posts in August 2013, when I first got the blog. I wasn’t there yet, until late August. I had a totally normal life then. Compare it to now. You can see the difference, right? Um, oh well, I have to say good- bye!
I don’t have a lot of time just to stay and write here all day, though I need to write four more posts!

Huggy The Pug**

The Requested Chat

Chatroom: kryteers, secretstealer, mysteryMWAhha, huggythepugno.1, COOKIEcrumbs789, iamablackpug789, princessqueen456, sadadog, gates123, sandyiscool999, belluvsawesome, violetpetluvah, cattygurlrulz, kanaboxer
cattygurlrulz: v? are you here? bel, you 2?
belluvsawesome: here, yah. I can understand why you are friends with some of the dogs here!
cattygurlrulz: you can?
sandyiscool999: I can understand why you like Bel…
secretstealer: bel, what did you do behind my back?
belluvsawesome: nothing, I swear. I like ton make new friends. don’t you?
sadadog: Catty, how do you like home?
cattygurlrulz: it’s fine.
gates123: princess, SACA?
princesqueen456: I am on task one- but I just couldn’t refuse this chat request! 🙂 The leader, SACA Cat is really sweet, but one of the Cats mewswhisker is MEAN! 😦
huggythepugno.1: snort.
princessqueen456: what?
kryteers: whisker… instead of PAW? silly!
princessqueen456: I can scratch, you know!
iamablackpug789: we know. you literally ripped out my eyeball!
COOKIEcrumbs789: mine, too! remember… it was so funny, I was almost with one eye, instead of two.
kanaboxer: yup! SOO… funny! I don’t want you to have only one eye!
sadadog: some of us might…
gates123: what do you mean, SADA dog, by that?
sadadog: nothing!
huggythepugno.1: um, well- so I have an announcement!
kanaboxer: DON’t!! I read your post!
COOKIEcrumbs789: I did too!
mysteryMWAhha: what? you still go on that blog?
COOKIEcrumbs789: yeah, I just read their posts n secrets (HA!)
secretstealer: good job, cnc!
sadadog: that’s not nice!
sandyiscool999: but bel said otherwise…..
secretstealer: sandy and bel? what’s up with you two? I have to know why you are both whispering and giggling like crazy! it hurt me 😦
belluvsawesome: sorry!
sandyiscool999: I second that! Sorry!
huggythepugno.1: please- stop! I have an announcement- I’m going to leave SADA!
sadadog: what?!!!!!
kanaboxer: huggy- no! make your decision later!
cattygurlrulz: yeah, huggy- no! life back here is boring! you can’t miss the fight!
kanaboxer: yes, huggy no!
gates123: leave? why- is it ’cause of me?
princessqueen456: I like SACA- but I’m not leaving you- or SADA!
iamablackpug789: our best secret agent- my best friend- gone?
huggythepugno.1: sorry- I just can’t.
kryteers: why? why? why do you wanna leave? I’m not saying it’s bad- I like it, but I wanna know- curious of me!
mysteryMWAhha: what made you change your mind?
kanaboxer: it was me.
sandyiscool999: KANA?!?
violetpetluvah: really?!?!
kanaboxer: I told huggy today that the gang needed space.. and we weren’t friends, and Huggy’s now mad and wants to leave 😦
iamablackpug789: you won’t, right, huggy? and kana? I’m at a loss for words!
kanaboxer: I regret it too. I shouldn’t have said anything.
gates123: oh well.
kanaboxer: thanks, gates. you understand-
gates123: no, what? I said oh well to Wronklette- we are also chatting!
huggythepugno.1: wronk o lay? back to her? kana’s right!
kanaboxer: I’m not!
sadadog; huggy I’ll give it to you till tomorrow to think, ok?
huggythepugno.1: ok
kryteers: SAY NO! SAY NO!
mysteryMWAhha: best secret agent- gone, ha! too petty for them!
secretstealer: so? they deserve to lose one! we don’t!
kryteers: already 3459 dogs! come on- we’re wasting our time here!
COOKIEcrumbs789: i’ll come in a sec!
secretstealer: great! come on!
COOKIEcrumbs789: guys, n dogs? bye!
belluvsawesome: see you, CNC!
huggythepugno.1: good luck and thanks for the post!
kanaboxer: I second that! thanks!
COOKIEcrumbs789: no prob!

A Tearful Goodbye??!

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I have made a decision- I will leave SADA, to go back home. I have no choice- Kana said we were breaking apart. What’s the point…. if we’re not even together? Ugh. I feel mucky and gooey. I would usually go to gates to talk it out, but now? gates is tired, lethargic and all he does is grunt. Missions aren’t going to come easily to him… especially the near coming battle. And CNC telling all that- makes me suspicious. And Catty- I only heard from her yesterday, but today? It’s almost noon- and no sign of a post at all! This is unbelievable.
I have to say goodbye to SADA and SADA dog- even though I commented on Sada Dog’s new blog- and it made me laugh aloud- and I wonder if the gang- no, my so called ‘friends’- read it also! But we aren’t friends anymore. the words I am typing make me cringe. I don’t want to listen to Kana- why was she so mean?? It confused me, no wait- it still confuses me. I don’t think kana has ever done anything to harm anyone.
So I’m going to request a chat- with everyone, including SADA dog- so I can break the news to him.
I wonder if Sandy is going to leave after me- because she has two forbidden friends- not like Violet who is just friendly with Catty. Friendly? Friends? Those words used to make me feel sunshine and rainbows and now I feel like throwing up. I feel sick and dizzy- but I won’t type more.
I will tell everything to every one during the chat! Ha, I wonder what they’ll say when I’ll announce that I’m leaving. I can imagine gates grimacing, Princess getting worried, Sandy saying, ‘eh?’, Kana frowning with grimness, SADA dog shocked, Muggy disappointed, Catty and Violet looking as if they’ll faint, and the evils smiling.
I can’t do it, but I have to. for the Gang’s sake. I just have no other chance to escape this nightmare come true.

Huggy**

Huggy And I have a Little Chat

Me: Huggy- we have to tell SADA dog that we know the evils battle plans!
Huggy: KANA! No, how do you know she isn’t lying?
I am silent for a moment. I know CNC. We used to be BFF’s. And now? Well, CNC is unpredictable. I squirm before I can answer. My mind is all blank!
Me: Cookies ‘n Cream and I used to be Bff’s. She never lied.
Huggy’s expression softens. Her wrinkles wrinkle and she peers at me, to see if I am lying. But I’m not. I’m not lying. I can’t after all.
Huggy: I agree- she never did lie!
Me: Yeah, and she wants to come back- you hear?
Huggy nods and her eyes are trained on the floor, like she’s hiding something. Did she…? Oh, no she didn’t! She couldn’t!
Me: The letter for CNC… the private post….. you READ it?
Huggy avoids eye contact and I see her about to run away. I grit my teeth. So she did! My heart breaks!
Me: Why?!?
Huggy: I don’t know…. I just did- no harm done, right?
I don’t look at Huggy- no harm done? Seriously- why is Huggy being all snoopy all of a sudden? I disapprove.
Huggy: At least- we’re still Bff’s and CNC might come, right??
Anger flashes inside me. I can’t control it. It’s in my mind, my heart, my lungs, my paws… it’s every where. I can feel it, burning like a flame inside me.
Me: Huggy- no, why are we friends? Why?
Huggy’s eyes widen.
Huggy: So… we’re not?
Anger is back, and fear is now flickering.
Me: Princess is gone for SACA, Catty left, violet is obsessed with Catty, Muggy? too playful, Gates- sick, and CNC left us, and us? Well, we’re apart. the gang is.. well, falling apart, I guess. So, we don’t belong.
I Try not to break the news to Huggy too harshly. But Huggy looks like I just stabbed a knife into her. My heart breaks.
Huggy: So… we don’t click… anymore?
Me: I- I- didn’t-
But it’s too late- Huggy is gone. I feel like crying. No, this chat went HORRIBLE!

KaNa 😦

The Cutest Pug Ever

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Huggy here, again. kana posted this picture…. is it cute??
Um, well, Thanks I guess. Kana and I have a chat scheduled soon…. better go!
Bye!

BARK!!!
Huggy

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