“HOWL” a word from Gates

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Gates here. this will be sort of long, though. I wrote this thing 24/7 so I could present it here today.
Huggy, as you know, is on the picture. She is so sweet, but I feel so bad- she can’t leave SADA! But how could Kana do this? Kana- sweet, kind Kana- did this? It’s hard to believe, if you think about it. Kana was the one who pushed me through the rocks, when she could have left me to face my death. But no, she saved me. Isn’t that the most amazing thing? And Kana loves to listen to others- she is last in line in her own eyes. But now- Kana wants CNC so desperately, I’m surprised CNC isn’t asking Kana to join. Let’s hope she says no.
And Catty? Well, she’s gone, too. Princess= SACA!
Everybody is drifting apart, I have to say, HOWL!!!!!
NOthing is better than just grimacing and crying and letting all the tears just wash away. I read Huggy’s posts- she really should become a writer- she is as good as Kana- and that’s saying a lot! Kana won the “BDW (Best Dog Writer) Award” and kana was all smileys for the whole week, but that’s KAna. Kana seems like a really different dog now- like she doesn’t appreciate what she already has. She needs MORE, MORE, MORE!
And now- me! I am getting worse. My eyesight is dimming- and I can barely see figures and outlines. My hearing is getting worse, too- you have to shout for me to even hear a mere whisper. And my legs hurt like crazy! My paws are bent and they feel like if I put too much pressure, they will craxk.
Uh, Arthritis!
This just really stinks to me- I have the worst life of the whoel gang. Sure, maybe they have their own problems, but none of them is literally sick with disease. Or if they are, I hope they will feel better in time for New Year’s day- which is TOMORROW!! Oh, my woof- I am so excited!
Sada Dog is planning to throw a new year’s Party!!!
Um, well- bye for now!

GATES ____++)

December 31st!

Gulp. today is December 31st.
Decision day! Tell SADA dog about plans day! So many events, but I am still with doubt.
IS CNC LYING?!? SHOULD I LEAVE?!?
I just am not sure about my choices yet. kana is- she plans to tell SADA dog- all by herself. part of me feels left out, but the other half doesn’t feel left out. And why should I feel this way when I am surrounded by…. by… I don’t know- friends, I guess.
Why do we have to make choices?
Which is regret such a strong word? life would be easy if we just had someone we trusted to navigate our lives. That’s what cats have. That’s what princess used to have.
But it’s too sad now.
we have to make the choices and face the consequences and choose our paths. it’s our choice whether to be selfish or brave, nice or mean. And then we wonder: What would have happened if I chose the other option? But, too bad. We only live once. And nobody is willing to live again a life full of dread and being tormented. And who wants guilt?
I bet the evils are heavy with guilt! Who wouldn’t be after declaring war! And, well the more I think about it, the more doubt I have. I can’t choose, I just can’t. This is a great mystery to me- why to do we face so many troubles?
I think for a while, and then the answer comes to me, crystal clear: So we can overcome them.

HUGGY!
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Think About It

Cuteness in disguise

Cuteness in disguise

Huggy here. I still have time before the decision. ANd truth be told- I’m nervous. Super duper nervous. I’m fretting.
Should I leave?? Should I? I do miss a normal life- where I don’t worry about Adopt Me, Please. and I don’t have tasks and earn names like huggypaw! Where I don’t have to make difficult choices and write a post or two everyday. But SADA is difficult. It’s not fair! But I shouldn’t be saying that. gates should! He has arthritis and it makes it very difficult for him! I just wish I could help somehow, but I’m so confused, I hardly know where I am.
But… here at Sada? I have a ton to blog about, and a ton to think about. I’m surrounded by the gang.. or my friends. I have secrets and I have burdens. My life is a betrayal full of test and questions to see if I’m worthy. But am I?
Doubt is my weapon. So is cuteness. When you open this blog, you must think- Huggy has a totally normal, perfect life, but I don’t. I used to. Scroll to the posts in August 2013, when I first got the blog. I wasn’t there yet, until late August. I had a totally normal life then. Compare it to now. You can see the difference, right? Um, oh well, I have to say good- bye!
I don’t have a lot of time just to stay and write here all day, though I need to write four more posts!

Huggy The Pug**

A Tearful Goodbye??!

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I have made a decision- I will leave SADA, to go back home. I have no choice- Kana said we were breaking apart. What’s the point…. if we’re not even together? Ugh. I feel mucky and gooey. I would usually go to gates to talk it out, but now? gates is tired, lethargic and all he does is grunt. Missions aren’t going to come easily to him… especially the near coming battle. And CNC telling all that- makes me suspicious. And Catty- I only heard from her yesterday, but today? It’s almost noon- and no sign of a post at all! This is unbelievable.
I have to say goodbye to SADA and SADA dog- even though I commented on Sada Dog’s new blog- and it made me laugh aloud- and I wonder if the gang- no, my so called ‘friends’- read it also! But we aren’t friends anymore. the words I am typing make me cringe. I don’t want to listen to Kana- why was she so mean?? It confused me, no wait- it still confuses me. I don’t think kana has ever done anything to harm anyone.
So I’m going to request a chat- with everyone, including SADA dog- so I can break the news to him.
I wonder if Sandy is going to leave after me- because she has two forbidden friends- not like Violet who is just friendly with Catty. Friendly? Friends? Those words used to make me feel sunshine and rainbows and now I feel like throwing up. I feel sick and dizzy- but I won’t type more.
I will tell everything to every one during the chat! Ha, I wonder what they’ll say when I’ll announce that I’m leaving. I can imagine gates grimacing, Princess getting worried, Sandy saying, ‘eh?’, Kana frowning with grimness, SADA dog shocked, Muggy disappointed, Catty and Violet looking as if they’ll faint, and the evils smiling.
I can’t do it, but I have to. for the Gang’s sake. I just have no other chance to escape this nightmare come true.

Huggy**

Huggy And I have a Little Chat

Me: Huggy- we have to tell SADA dog that we know the evils battle plans!
Huggy: KANA! No, how do you know she isn’t lying?
I am silent for a moment. I know CNC. We used to be BFF’s. And now? Well, CNC is unpredictable. I squirm before I can answer. My mind is all blank!
Me: Cookies ‘n Cream and I used to be Bff’s. She never lied.
Huggy’s expression softens. Her wrinkles wrinkle and she peers at me, to see if I am lying. But I’m not. I’m not lying. I can’t after all.
Huggy: I agree- she never did lie!
Me: Yeah, and she wants to come back- you hear?
Huggy nods and her eyes are trained on the floor, like she’s hiding something. Did she…? Oh, no she didn’t! She couldn’t!
Me: The letter for CNC… the private post….. you READ it?
Huggy avoids eye contact and I see her about to run away. I grit my teeth. So she did! My heart breaks!
Me: Why?!?
Huggy: I don’t know…. I just did- no harm done, right?
I don’t look at Huggy- no harm done? Seriously- why is Huggy being all snoopy all of a sudden? I disapprove.
Huggy: At least- we’re still Bff’s and CNC might come, right??
Anger flashes inside me. I can’t control it. It’s in my mind, my heart, my lungs, my paws… it’s every where. I can feel it, burning like a flame inside me.
Me: Huggy- no, why are we friends? Why?
Huggy’s eyes widen.
Huggy: So… we’re not?
Anger is back, and fear is now flickering.
Me: Princess is gone for SACA, Catty left, violet is obsessed with Catty, Muggy? too playful, Gates- sick, and CNC left us, and us? Well, we’re apart. the gang is.. well, falling apart, I guess. So, we don’t belong.
I Try not to break the news to Huggy too harshly. But Huggy looks like I just stabbed a knife into her. My heart breaks.
Huggy: So… we don’t click… anymore?
Me: I- I- didn’t-
But it’s too late- Huggy is gone. I feel like crying. No, this chat went HORRIBLE!

KaNa 😦

The Cutest Pug Ever

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Huggy here, again. kana posted this picture…. is it cute??
Um, well, Thanks I guess. Kana and I have a chat scheduled soon…. better go!
Bye!

BARK!!!
Huggy

Friends Smiends

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Huggy here!
This isn’t a picture of me, but I just found it, and thought it was SO SO cute! (I got it from my calendar, which I got for Christmas! SHH! Don’t tell!)
Um, well, I read CNC’s post.
I bet you did, too! And my heart melted! Kana and I completed the mission! Now, we know their battle plan, still doubt trickles me. What if CNC made it up? What if she did? Kana read it, too, and she approved 100% that CNC was telling the truth. I am still hesitating, and I don’t want to tell SADA dog, just yet.
Maybe later…….?
Also, Sandy has been ignorant. Don’t blame her- she has made two evil friends- Bel and Star Stripe! She should feel guilty!
Princess is taking the SACA test- and I wonder how it’s going. I can’t believe she agreed- but thankfully, it’s only part time- not that she will spending her days and nights at SACA- I hope. I also wonder what name they get after they finish Secret Agent Training. Whisker…? Tail….? Paw, in my opinion, is so much better. But princess already has PrincessPaw! Will her training be done forever at this rate? I sure hope not. She tried hard, I have to admit that!
The world is a crazy place. and I plan to survive it!!

Huggy***

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