December 31st!

Gulp. today is December 31st.
Decision day! Tell SADA dog about plans day! So many events, but I am still with doubt.
IS CNC LYING?!? SHOULD I LEAVE?!?
I just am not sure about my choices yet. kana is- she plans to tell SADA dog- all by herself. part of me feels left out, but the other half doesn’t feel left out. And why should I feel this way when I am surrounded by…. by… I don’t know- friends, I guess.
Why do we have to make choices?
Which is regret such a strong word? life would be easy if we just had someone we trusted to navigate our lives. That’s what cats have. That’s what princess used to have.
But it’s too sad now.
we have to make the choices and face the consequences and choose our paths. it’s our choice whether to be selfish or brave, nice or mean. And then we wonder: What would have happened if I chose the other option? But, too bad. We only live once. And nobody is willing to live again a life full of dread and being tormented. And who wants guilt?
I bet the evils are heavy with guilt! Who wouldn’t be after declaring war! And, well the more I think about it, the more doubt I have. I can’t choose, I just can’t. This is a great mystery to me- why to do we face so many troubles?
I think for a while, and then the answer comes to me, crystal clear: So we can overcome them.

HUGGY!
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A Tearful Goodbye??!

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I have made a decision- I will leave SADA, to go back home. I have no choice- Kana said we were breaking apart. What’s the point…. if we’re not even together? Ugh. I feel mucky and gooey. I would usually go to gates to talk it out, but now? gates is tired, lethargic and all he does is grunt. Missions aren’t going to come easily to him… especially the near coming battle. And CNC telling all that- makes me suspicious. And Catty- I only heard from her yesterday, but today? It’s almost noon- and no sign of a post at all! This is unbelievable.
I have to say goodbye to SADA and SADA dog- even though I commented on Sada Dog’s new blog- and it made me laugh aloud- and I wonder if the gang- no, my so called ‘friends’- read it also! But we aren’t friends anymore. the words I am typing make me cringe. I don’t want to listen to Kana- why was she so mean?? It confused me, no wait- it still confuses me. I don’t think kana has ever done anything to harm anyone.
So I’m going to request a chat- with everyone, including SADA dog- so I can break the news to him.
I wonder if Sandy is going to leave after me- because she has two forbidden friends- not like Violet who is just friendly with Catty. Friendly? Friends? Those words used to make me feel sunshine and rainbows and now I feel like throwing up. I feel sick and dizzy- but I won’t type more.
I will tell everything to every one during the chat! Ha, I wonder what they’ll say when I’ll announce that I’m leaving. I can imagine gates grimacing, Princess getting worried, Sandy saying, ‘eh?’, Kana frowning with grimness, SADA dog shocked, Muggy disappointed, Catty and Violet looking as if they’ll faint, and the evils smiling.
I can’t do it, but I have to. for the Gang’s sake. I just have no other chance to escape this nightmare come true.

Huggy**

The Cutest Pug Ever

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Huggy here, again. kana posted this picture…. is it cute??
Um, well, Thanks I guess. Kana and I have a chat scheduled soon…. better go!
Bye!

BARK!!!
Huggy

Friends Smiends

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Huggy here!
This isn’t a picture of me, but I just found it, and thought it was SO SO cute! (I got it from my calendar, which I got for Christmas! SHH! Don’t tell!)
Um, well, I read CNC’s post.
I bet you did, too! And my heart melted! Kana and I completed the mission! Now, we know their battle plan, still doubt trickles me. What if CNC made it up? What if she did? Kana read it, too, and she approved 100% that CNC was telling the truth. I am still hesitating, and I don’t want to tell SADA dog, just yet.
Maybe later…….?
Also, Sandy has been ignorant. Don’t blame her- she has made two evil friends- Bel and Star Stripe! She should feel guilty!
Princess is taking the SACA test- and I wonder how it’s going. I can’t believe she agreed- but thankfully, it’s only part time- not that she will spending her days and nights at SACA- I hope. I also wonder what name they get after they finish Secret Agent Training. Whisker…? Tail….? Paw, in my opinion, is so much better. But princess already has PrincessPaw! Will her training be done forever at this rate? I sure hope not. She tried hard, I have to admit that!
The world is a crazy place. and I plan to survive it!!

Huggy***

A Secret Message!

Hiding Is the Best defense!

Hiding Is the Best defense!

Huggy here.
I read Kana’s letter. Don’t bark- don’t snarl- don’t! I lost my pact, so what? And I did get my congratulations from Kana! I was over the moon!
Kana: great job on your post!
Me: Thanks!
And Kana just smiled at me, her thick boxer coat gleaming, and she walked away, so proud and happy!
But reading Kana’s message to CNC made me want to throw up! I wish I didn’t read it! I just wish- oh, well. I did. And now I know Kana wants CNC back and she forgives her!
Me?
No way! CNc harmed SADA- she is evil- and coldhearted! She broke SADA and the gang- by leaving us- argh! So why should I ever forgive her? I have to mark this as ‘Private!’ Gates and Kana and the rest would never approve!
And Princess? Well, she’s living a life, that’s for sure! Friends, luxury, missions… Princess has it all! And Sada Dog is thinking of sending her partly to SACA (Secret Agent Cat Association!) But I won’t have it! We were already torn apart- do we need more? NO WAY!
Well, I know I have a lot of strong opinions, so please don’t use them against me!! Thanks!

Huggy ****( my old signoff :()

CNC- The Real Battle

CNC here. Yeah, you should know I will post regularly. Please read this post, though! Don’t go all ‘evil!’ on me! Anyways, Adopt Me, Please is ready for a real battle! And I’m not shocked to learn that SADA is not! Star Stripe returned today! She was all like, they don’t have an idea! But I can tell she’s exhausted, and she hates SAndy now. I squelched disloyalty as I agreed with her. Problem is, they are still my friends. If I ever returned, would they agree? probably not, but who cares?
I do!
Okay, this is impossible! I miss the gang- so much! We laughed so much- and especially Sandy- my secret admirer! Even Smith Anthony doesn’t admire me that much. Seen and Anni are being nicer to me, and I am being nicer to them. I just wish I could reject them, and come back to the gang. But no, I can’t. They wouldn’t trust my loyalty! And believe me, I don’t even trust my own loyalty! I really don’t! I mean, I love the gang and all, and I love Adopt Me, Please and all, but where does my true loyalty lie? See? I just wish everything as normal- when we just made friends- and we would laugh on the website together, and relive the moment as Kana would construct WCSOTG! That is so… long ago! Almost three months ago! It seems like last year. I have matured so much- and changed so much more differently. I would have never thought I would be here, when the gang and I just made friends. I feel awful. But is there a way I can change that?!?

Face Your Fears

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Huggy here. Um, hi, I guess. Remember my piece- about the secrets? Well, I lost that pact and logged on to private posts- I really regretted it for a second, until I saw sandyiscool999 has a mini chat with belluvsawesome. I wanted to desperately tell violet and Catty- but I was frozen
With guilt, with fear and with- hatred? No- with anger towards Sandy? Yes- that she kept such a secret away from me! I feel so abandoned, and my bond between the gang is breaking. We’re all slowly drifting apart, we are. I mean, Muggy and I are as close as ever- but the rest? Well, I think SADA drove us apart…. from Catty.
There was another interesting post- from Catty! Hope flickered inside me when I read it- she missed us! But that she wished she was back- irked me. So I was happy? that was wrong. I am so confused- I don’t know where I stand now. Kana and I haven’t completed our mission- and well, we have two days. Only Muggy notices me- there are bigger troubles then my petty little ones.
I just feel so horrible. I don’t know why I am here, standing so.. so strong at SADA, like my insecurities don’t exist. How well I hide it.
Well- bye. I won’t mark this private- I might just delete this!

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