“HOWL” a word from Gates

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Gates here. this will be sort of long, though. I wrote this thing 24/7 so I could present it here today.
Huggy, as you know, is on the picture. She is so sweet, but I feel so bad- she can’t leave SADA! But how could Kana do this? Kana- sweet, kind Kana- did this? It’s hard to believe, if you think about it. Kana was the one who pushed me through the rocks, when she could have left me to face my death. But no, she saved me. Isn’t that the most amazing thing? And Kana loves to listen to others- she is last in line in her own eyes. But now- Kana wants CNC so desperately, I’m surprised CNC isn’t asking Kana to join. Let’s hope she says no.
And Catty? Well, she’s gone, too. Princess= SACA!
Everybody is drifting apart, I have to say, HOWL!!!!!
NOthing is better than just grimacing and crying and letting all the tears just wash away. I read Huggy’s posts- she really should become a writer- she is as good as Kana- and that’s saying a lot! Kana won the “BDW (Best Dog Writer) Award” and kana was all smileys for the whole week, but that’s KAna. Kana seems like a really different dog now- like she doesn’t appreciate what she already has. She needs MORE, MORE, MORE!
And now- me! I am getting worse. My eyesight is dimming- and I can barely see figures and outlines. My hearing is getting worse, too- you have to shout for me to even hear a mere whisper. And my legs hurt like crazy! My paws are bent and they feel like if I put too much pressure, they will craxk.
Uh, Arthritis!
This just really stinks to me- I have the worst life of the whoel gang. Sure, maybe they have their own problems, but none of them is literally sick with disease. Or if they are, I hope they will feel better in time for New Year’s day- which is TOMORROW!! Oh, my woof- I am so excited!
Sada Dog is planning to throw a new year’s Party!!!
Um, well- bye for now!

GATES ____++)

December 31st!

Gulp. today is December 31st.
Decision day! Tell SADA dog about plans day! So many events, but I am still with doubt.
IS CNC LYING?!? SHOULD I LEAVE?!?
I just am not sure about my choices yet. kana is- she plans to tell SADA dog- all by herself. part of me feels left out, but the other half doesn’t feel left out. And why should I feel this way when I am surrounded by…. by… I don’t know- friends, I guess.
Why do we have to make choices?
Which is regret such a strong word? life would be easy if we just had someone we trusted to navigate our lives. That’s what cats have. That’s what princess used to have.
But it’s too sad now.
we have to make the choices and face the consequences and choose our paths. it’s our choice whether to be selfish or brave, nice or mean. And then we wonder: What would have happened if I chose the other option? But, too bad. We only live once. And nobody is willing to live again a life full of dread and being tormented. And who wants guilt?
I bet the evils are heavy with guilt! Who wouldn’t be after declaring war! And, well the more I think about it, the more doubt I have. I can’t choose, I just can’t. This is a great mystery to me- why to do we face so many troubles?
I think for a while, and then the answer comes to me, crystal clear: So we can overcome them.

HUGGY!
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